Kadiera's Playground Cute but Evil - it averages out

Go read this. Seriously. Because it totally covers a lot of things that have gone on with me in the last year or so

I lost the thread of where this should go sometime after I woke up (and now that I've spent an hour immersed in an OMGWTFBBQ problem here at work, it's even more tenuous).

At any rate, as a reminder for when I've got a little more time....

karate is like most Goddess religions - power from within, rather than power over others. It makes people feel confident, knowing what their body can do, and knowing when to use that power and when not to.

Interestingly, I've been in therapy for a year now.

Things are definitely better than when I started, but there's still enough to deal with that the insurance shouldn't complain about continuing to pay, tho I have gone to every other week instead of weekly.

We had a good laugh about my answers to the evaluation form she had to fill out tonight, because "client needs coping skills because people are fucking crazy" isn't a professional response, and yet it covered everything she eventually put on the sheet as to reasons I need to continue therapy. Especially since, at least once a week I manage to tell her something from my past that horrifies her.

I've had probably 5 nights in a row now of nightmares. There's nothing special going on - no more stress than there has been, no more earth-shattering, life-changing events, and yet I'm having nightmare after nightmare after nightmare. They're very similar to the nightmares I've had when weaning off antidepressants in the past.

I haven't looked too hard, but I recall being told that all psychoactive drugs, including SSRIs, must be fat-soluble to pass into the brain. Treating metabolic syndrome (including insulin resistance) can improve depression and bipolar symptoms. SSRIs can cause weight gain.

Can someone please enlighten me on the leap of logic that says that gay marriage means teaching 7 & 8 year olds about graphic gay sex? I mean, I heard a guy say this on NPR yesterday, and I'm still trying to wrap my head around how we make that leap.

Especially given the completely inadequate state of current public school teaching of the birds and the bees....

after I unsubscribed from the playgroup site, I got an email from the organizer.

She apologized for missing the playdate, because she was at a family event and decided to let her kids stay and play. Then she proceeded to dump her whole sob story about how hard it is to organize something like this, and how so many people never show up, and how it's important to her that it's open to everyone, and how she's had to attend every event that she's scheduled.

So....still....in a 6 week period, there've been 4 evening/weekend events scheduled (two of those at my request), and something like 2 dozen weekday morning events. If I stayed, I'd want to pay pro-rated dues or something, because that's not at all fair.

Alex and I went to the park this evening. We were supposed to meet a playgroup there, but there was no one who seemed to be talking to anyone else, so it's hard to say if they were there and we missed them or if they just weren't there.

I give up on this group. A group that claims to be for both stay at home and working moms that only has playdates on weekday mornings unless I bug them to schedule one just isn't going to work. They charge dues, and I can't even get to a freakin event where I might be willing to pay their fucking dues because they won't schedule 2 events in one day and don't schedule things when I'm not att work.

we've been doing a lot of cooking lately, needing to use up the veggies from our CSA share. We've not always been successful at using up or giving away the whole mess, but we're trying.

Today's experiment: stuffed squash/zuchhini - good, but could have been better.

6 decent sized zuchhini or summer squash (or other squash I suppose, though cooking directions would need to change.
1 package italian sausage - I think this is a pound or so.
1 cup bread crumbs
2-2.5 cups of cheese - we used 1 cup cheddar, and a little over 1/2 cup each parmesan and mozza

Things we'll be adding next time: salt, pepper, an onion, and a bit of nutmeg.